NURUL AZIZ

Assalamualaikum. Hi.

I usually reserved my thought to myself because I understand not all people share the same view or opinion or have the same preferences as me. I understand people are free to have their own preferences. Their preference can be a total opposite of mine and that's okay. You can have a different type of favourite food, movies, music, books, hobbies, priorities, political views and there's no wrong to that as long as it is not against the law and religion. It's called 'celebrating differences'. It's not an alien concept but many people can't accept it when other people don't share the same opinion, preference, life value (etc) as them. Since I can tolerate these differences better than average, I rather keep my opinion to myself than let it out to the world. Which can be mistaken as ignorance by some people but I don't really mind. People can think whatever they want because I'm all about celebrating opinions. Well, I do mind a little but... nevermind.

But... Nevermind

It's a situation I often find myself in. When I said I'm all about celebrating opinions, it doesn't come easy. I have to restrain myself from giving comments which later can cause an awkward situation.  I'd read something or talking to someone that opinion didn't match mine and I was ready to argue but then I remember, it's not worth it. That's when my brain goes but... nevermind.

But... (hahaha here's when I'm contradicting my own words) it's a no brainer to put two contradicting things in one sentence. Here's an example which I twist from a real experience I had today.

"I'm not making a threat but I will make you suffer later. It's not a threat because I'll do it"

I was typing furiously trying to explain to the other party that they are wrong. That what they are denying doing is exactly what they are doing. In this context, making a threat. And then I stopped typing because if that's what they think, so be it. Nevermind. Whatever floats your boat.

Here's another one I experienced today. Someone was comparing two similar items that belong to two different leagues.

"Cheeseburger is better than wagyu steak"

But... One is a fast food and another one is a state of the art meal

After reading this entire post back, I think the main reason why I reserved my thought to myself is that I find arguments are tiring and a waste of time. But I still believe in 'celebrating differences'. I'm sorry for this messy, all over the place post but this is a glimpse of what happened when I let my thought out. Messy and all over the place.

p/s:  I compiled my commentator's link here as my way of appreciating their visit and comments. Feel free to visit them too ya 😊

Thanks for reading.

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Nurul

Assalamualaikum. Hi.

Assalamualaikum. Hi.

This blogpost is inspired by Lya Amie's post. I love surprising my loved ones even with littlest things. The smile on their faces whenever they received the surprises is one of things that makes me happy.

My mak is one of my favourite person to surprise because she's often clueless. I have series of stories where we pranked her first before surprising her. Don't worry they were not mat saleh type of pranks. The most memorable one was when me and Ira went back to Terengganu for raya. This was before I am married. We usually started our journey from Selangor around 2.00am to 3.00am to avoid the typical festive season massive traffic. Mak will always called around after Subuh prayer to check on us. As far as I remember, we never tell her the truth about our current locations. Our answer will always be, "baru gerak" or "baru sampai (insert random location)" and she believed that. Every. single. time.

That time, she called us as usual. We were about three hours away from home but when she called us, we told her we just enter the LPT 1 highway. So I guess she continue with her activities thinking her two daughters will only arrived 5 or 6 hours later. When we almost exited the highway, Ira called ayah to ask their whereabouts because she told us she planned to buy groceries earlier when she called us. Oh, ayah is one of our partner in crime in surprising mak. He's one reliable and good partner in crime. Hahaha. Ayah told us mak was at this one hypermarket so we head there right after exited the highway. When we arrived at the hypermarket, we were stopped by ayah who was waiting in the car. He told us mak is at the counter, paying for the items. So me and Ira entered the hypermarket with caution because the counters located close to the entrance and we don't want mak to see us before we get close to her. Iqa, our littlest sister was at the counter too with mak. She saw us first but I don't remember her reaction. When we arrived at the counter, I patted mak's shoulder and said "hi" to her. She "hi" back to me and smiled a little and continue rummaging her purse, looking for money I think. Few seconds later she look back at me and shouted heyyyy. This time with a grin. Hahaha. She hi me the first time without realizing it was me that stood in front of her.

But as the saying goes, the pitcher goes so often to the well that it is broken at last or as we Malaysian says, sepandai-pandai tupai melompat akhirnya jatuh ke tanah jua. I kantoi once tho. It just happened end of last year when we were on our way back home. That night, she called us as usual to checked what time we will start our journey. Since we were not at the same place (me at my house and Ira at her rented house) she called Ira first. When she called me, she told me Ira can't go back as planned and she asked me why to which I answered, "Mana kak tau. Dah dia tak boleh balik". Mind you, Ira never told me her plan (read : surprising mak). Only when we were in the car I asked her did she tell mak she can't go back and she just laughed at my question 😒. There, suddenly we set another surprise for mak.

That morning when we arrived Terengganu, we missed the nearest exit to the house. Me and Ira were sleeping and Arrif was too immersed in his Spotify. The next exit located near to a pasar minggu (pasar pagi / pasar tani) so we planned to head there first to buy some kuih for breakfast. I called mak to tell her about our situation and if she needed anything from the pasar. Here I translated our conversation (because we spoke in Terengganu' slang) as I remember it;

Mak : Nak makan nasi dagang? Kalau nak, beli la beras nasi dagang
Me : (TALKING TO IRA WHILE MAK IS ON THE LINE YOU STUPID OR WHAT NURUL? HAHAHA). Ira nak nasi dagang?
Mak : Haa, cakap Ira tak jadi balik. Ooo tipuu. Pandai sangat ni.

Hahaha. She practically shouted at me through the phone. I think that was the first time I ever failed to surprise her. Mak is one of the person I know that rarely show her sadness so when she asked me why Ira can't go back, her tone was normal. No trace of sadness or whatever even after I teased her with "sedih la tu?". I guess losing her mother at young age really mould her to be strong and make her keep her emotion deep inside herself. But when she 'shouted' at me, I could sense her happiness when she know Ira will be home too. I just love it when she is happy like that. I mean, who don't want to see their mother happy right?

But I think she's kind of get it now because her guesses almost always hit the bull's eyes nowadays. She gave me a big Tupperware container when I always complained I don't have container big enough to store keropok. I'm sorry, I'm that spoil when I'm with my mum. Suddenly she wanted that too as if she don't have enough container collection already 😑. Such an Asian mum. Sadly the container was out of stock at her 'supplier'. Last two week I saw that container at my friend, Ili's whatsapp status. So I straight away booked one from her and asked her to send it to mak but I didn't tell mak about it. The parcel arrived this week (it's not Ili fault. I just paid her at the end of the week) and she called me first. Last month Ira ordered her birthday gift online also without telling her and she called Ira first. She's good in guessing now. We are in trouble. Hahaha.

Mak and her annoying lovely last child

Anyway, if you want to order Tupperware container and don't know where to get it, you can contact Ili HERE. Don't worry she's a trusted seller. She also sell chocolate but I never tried them yet.

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Those who read and watch Harry Potter must have already familiar with horcrux. To those who are clueless, horcrux is an object in which a dark wizard or witch has concealed a fragment of his/her soul for the purpose of attaining immortality. Horcrux is a dark magic and it can be literally any objects even the most common one like comb or pot. Among the characteristics of horcrux are it can sense threats and possess self defense mechanism. One of the event where you can see these characteristics of horcrux was when Ron Weasley tried to stab Slytherin's Locket (Voldemort horcrux) with Gryffindor's Sword (one of the item that can destroy horcruxes), the locket taunted Ron with his deepest fears. That's where my IG story came from. It was Ron's deepest fears.

Assalamualaikum. Hi.

I was on my way to work last Tuesday when I saw this incident. It happened at the junction close to my office. There was a family of three; a father, a mother and a child. From the uniform the kid wore, I assumed the parents wanted to send him to kindergarten but sadly their motorcycle broke down. I stopped at the nasi lemak stall close to the junction to buy nasi lemak. It was one of those days where I crave for nasi lemak and I just can't stop myself from having it. Anyone guilty of ruining their own diet? Raise your hand and don't let me be the only one here.

Anyway, back to the story. The male owner of the nasi lemak stall already running to help the family. I ordered my nasi lemak while eyeing them and contemplated if I should offer to send the mother and the son to school or not. I have this problem whenever I want to help people, I think too much. That time I thought to myself, what if they don't want my help? What if the stall owner already offered that, what if they take my offer to help the wrong way and that hurt their pride? Yup, my mind have the ability to run that wild in just couple of seconds.

By the time I paid for my nasi lemak, the stall owner was back to his stall and I saw the family went inside a Vellfire parked at one of the shop close to the stall. The husband was at the driver seat, ready to drive. Hahaha. I don't understand the situation at that point. My assumption was wrong. I assessed back the situation and I conclude 'the father' wasn't actually the father. I think he was one of the good guy who came to help the family (now consist only the mother and the son hahaha). I believed they were in a good hand after that with the kid safely arrived at school and the mother able to send her broken motorcycle to workshop.

So kids, what are the moral of this story?

1. Do not assume things. What we see might not be the truth. But I still assume until the end just to stop my curiosity or I won't be able to do anything that day because I'll keep thinking about the incident. Hahaha.

2. There are still good people in this world and we should be one of them.

3. Do not think too much before helping people. Just do it. Actually, I think I'll still have this problem. It is so hard to shake off negative thought whenever I'm at that kind situation. Any useful tips, anyone?

Thank you for reading.

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Nurul

Assalamualaikum. Hi.

Happy New Year everyone. How's your first day of 2020? I started my day with jogging (not a new year resolution whatsoever but I hope I'll be consistent. You can read about the reasons why I started jogging HERE). Then I had maggi goreng and teh ais at mamak near my house for breakfast #sonothealthy and now here I am, updating my blog.

I didn't plan to write about my new year resolutions here because it's too personal for me. But I think I should so that I could do a recap next year.

Attention : I wish none of my readers will take this entry the wrong way

I didn't believe in new year resolutions before because let's be honest, how many people follow through their resolutions and really checked them off at the end of the year? My view about new year resolutions changed when I started to have one two years ago. Of course I didn't checked all of them off my list but I noticed I at least tried to follow them through along the year. I wasn't consistent but there were progress even though a little. It acted as a guideline so I think it is good to have a new year resolutions.

First, let's do a quick recap on my last 2019 resolution. Mind you, I only achieved one resolution last year. Hahaha.

READ 12 BOOKS
I'm really consistent with this one. Not the reading part but the amount of to-read books hahaha. Every year it was 12 books. Never more, never less. I only managed to finish five books in 2019. It was partly Harry Potter and The Order of The Phoenix's fault. I wrote about it HERE.

Assalamualaikum. Hi.

I have no problem parting with my items. My mum can vouch to this. Ooh the amount of clothes, books and handbags I throw away (read : send back to Terengganu for my mum to sort and figure out where they should end up hahaha). I even consider selling my nikah outfit because I'm not going to wear it again so why keep it? I asked a lot of people if I should sell my nikah dress or not and all of them except my little sister (another item thrower this one) said, keep it. The most extreme solution I got from them were rent it out but never sell it. I might thank them later but for now I just don't understand the point of keeping it. But I'm keeping it anyway. For now. There might come days where the minimalist in me feel overwhelm with all the possession that I never use anymore and I'll sell it. Hahaha.

Anyway, back to my other items. I was cleaning my self care drawer or makeup drawer as people usually call it. I can't call my drawer a makeup drawer because makeup only make 30% of the items inside the drawer. I'm one plain Jane. I was sorting my brooch case when I noticed there were questionable items in that case. I mean, those items have all the right to be in a brooch case (or jewelry case) but the fact that they were in my brooch case is unsettling for me. Hahaha. I can't be more dramatic am I?

Assalamualaikum. Hi.

I had poem and quote phase. I think everyone experienced that phase, no? That period where all songs, quotes and poem seems to reflect your life and feelings. I had Tumblr account where I re-blog all quotes and poems that hit me in the heart. Hahaha. I've passed that period but I still like poems. They are not necessarily reflecting my life or feelings. I love how writers arranged their words to rhyme but meaningful at the same time. I love everything that rhymes. You could ask Arrif about the amount of pun I use everyday in our conversation. I'm surprised he's still not tired of my puns. Hahaha.

Anyway, I did write poems too but I wrote them in random books. It's safe to say, I've lost them all (how ironic). But I wrote one HERE. Let me know what do you think about my poem. It was inspired by my family and husband.

And here's one of my favourite poem. I friend gave me this when I had my heart broken from breaking up with an ex boyfriend. Hahaha. This was when I experienced the phase I mentioned above. But I still like this one though. It's not that deep but the rhyme is perfect. I'm not sure who was the writer so please let me know if you happen to know who wrote this. I'll credit her or him. But I assume it's a she because this poem is about a boy.

I have few more poems that I like but I will share them later. As for quote, I'm currently loving this quote shared by my best friend on her Instagram. It's Meagan Spooner from her book, Hunted. I haven't read the book yet but I would love to. Have you read the book?

Do you like poems and quotes too? Please recommend me your favourite poems and quotes if you have any.

Dear Future Me,

Assalamualaikum. Hi.

Growing up, you always know what you wanted to be. You know you wanted to be place in first class in school, get good results, go to matriculation, go to university, work in corporate or engineering industry. Although things didn't go smoothly as you wanted them to be, but they find ways eventually. I must say you are one lucky human. You didn't face major hardship like any other people. Alhamdulillah for that. Be thankful.

Of course as a human you have moments where you broke down. But you didn't let yourself being down for long because you know things will go back to normal and all you need to do was just get thru it because things won't go right if you do nothing and although if there were nothing you could do, being down won't do any good. It will only make you feel worse.

It's okay to be down and sad. It's part of being human. I like to think we are fluff balls full of emotion. Soft and squishy. Delicate yet flexible. So don't let all the negativity get the best of you. Do something or if you think there's nothing you can do, just follow the flow. You don't always get what you want but you will get what you need.

Sincerely,

You The Wise

Assalamualaikum. Hi.

Raya is closer and it make me feel nostalgic. So I'm going to share with you one of entry I wrote in my private blog. When having blogger's block, copy entries from your another blog. Heheh. This story is not directly related to raya but it's a story about one of my childhood memories at kampung where I spent most of my raya days.

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ROTI PAUNG

Tak sure roti ni memang asal Ganu or orang lain panggil roti ni dengan nama lain. Tapi I tak pernah jumpa dekat tempat lain. Ada satu kedai depan Mi Ketam KL yang dekat Seksyen 7 Shah Alam tu name Roti Paung. Tak sure dia jual roti ni ke or just sekadar nama bakery tu Roti Paung tapi I assume owner dia orang Ganu jugak kot. Tiba-tiba rasa nak type entry bahasa Ganu. Hahaha.

So what's so special about this roti? Hekeleh tadi cakap nak buat entry bahasa Ganu tetiba omputih pulak keluar. Roti ni ada sentimental value pada I. Haa mampukah anda semua sentimental terhadap makanan? Kau hado, bak kata Diva AA. Orang lain sentimental value benda-benda yang boleh disimpan, but I sentimental terhadap makanan. Tapi bukan sebarang roti paung yang I sentimental value kan ini. Habis rosak bahasa. Cikgu Bahasa Melayu jangan marah.

Dulu kecik-kecik kalau balik kampung, this was the smell I woke up to. Bangun pagi sejuk-sejuk, tiba-tiba bau roti baru lepas masak. Inggerish sangat kampung I ni. Ada jiran ki (atuk) I tu memang pagi-pagi dia buat roti ni untuk jual. Tapi dia tak jual dekat kedai mahupun gerai pun. People bought it straight from her kitchen. Panas-panas from the oven. Selalu jugak mak I kejutkan kitorang adik beradik and the cousins, mintak pergi beli roti ni. Alah jalan kaki sikit dekat tepi rumah ki tu terus sampai belakang dapur mak cik roti paung. Dengan baju tido seluar senteng, kadang-kadang tak basuh muka pun. Pagi-pagi buta terkedek-kedek dua tiga ketul bagi salam dekat pintu dapur orang. Nasib baik tak kontot sangat. Kalau tak dah rupe toyol dah. Hihihi. Tapi langit tak selalunya cerah. Kadang-kadang mendung lalu hujan. Kadang-kadang dua tiga ketul toyol pulang dengan hampa jua. Roti paung dah habis! Siapa beli banyak sangat roti paung ni sampai toyol tak sempat menjamahnya? Terus makan pagi tak lalu. Terpaksa toyol-toyol berebut nasi gorengan emak bekerjasama dengan makcik. Ya Allah, sedapnyaaa. Sedapnya merujuk kepada roti paung cicah teh o ataupun sungguh enak di makan begitu saja. Nasi gorengan emak bekerjsama dengan makcik juga tidak kurang sedapnya. Tak lalu makan pagi di atas adalah tipu daya semata-mata. Makan tetap makan.

Lepas sekian lama I melupakan roti paung. Hanyut dengan pujuk rayu Kepsi, Mekdonal melemakkan badan, Korean food dasar Melayu lupa daratan. Pada suatu hari mak cik I datang rumah bawak roti paung. Apa lagi terus melahap tanpa jemput orang ramai. Hahaha. Tiba-tiba rasa berdosa sebab tak jemput orang lain makan. Tapi roti paung bersentimental value dalam kalangan toyol berseluar senteng, harap orang ramai maafkan I *mata berkaca. Time tu mak cik I tak cakap pape pun pasal roti paung tu. Dia sibuk buat kerja since time tu ada kenduri kecil-kecilan dekat rumah I. Bila keadaan reda dan semua orang balik, baru la mak I cakap mak cik I bawak roti tu sebab dia teringat time kecik-kecik dulu kitorang suka sangat like SANGAT SUKA roti tu. Dengan cinta dan kasih sayang terhadap anak sedara pelahap ni, mak cik I pun bawak lah. Rasa nak nangis terharu weh bila mak I cerita. Mok teh, bakpe mok teh ingat lagi roti paung hok Kak Yu brehi ning? *nangis sambil sumbat roti paung dalam mulut.

So camtulah cerita I dan roti paung. Balik nanti nak seret mak balik kampung pagi-pagi beli roti paung ah. Eee tak sabarnyeee *menggelupur tak sabar. Okebai

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Eh doh habih lagi. Ni nok translate jadi bahase Ganung pulok. Kalu ade bahase Inggerih masuk sikek or maah ah sebak orang Ganung memang cakkak gitu pong. Doh jong ah stak (start), blebe nape ag Nurul.

Dok ahu ah memang asal Ganung ke orang tepak laing panggil roti ni bende laing. Tapi I dok rajin jupe agi ah dekak tepak laing. Ade se keda depang keda Mi Ketang KL dekat Seksyeng 7 Shah Alang or name ye Roti Paung. Dok pasti dia jual roti ni ke dok ke dia saje je buh name keda dia Roti Paung tapi I brase tuang ye orang Ganung gok or. Kak atah tu kate nok type entry bahasa Ganung kang? Hoh taip doh ah ni. Owoh panjang pulok perenggang ni.

Dulu kecek-kecek kalu balik kappung, this was the smell I woke up to (beng maroh ah kate doh kang orang Ganung cakak capo dengan bahasa Inggerih. Dok caye sudoh name mung Dolloh). Bangung pagi sejuk kettor pahtu bau roti pulok. Biase ah kappung I dekak Sweeden. Hahaha. Ada orang sebeloh rumoh ki I tu memang ye wak roti paung pagi-pagi. Memang wak untuk jual ah. Tapi ye dok jua dekak kedai ke mane. Ye jua dekak pitu dapo ye je. Kalu orang nok beli, bagi salang ah lu. Assalamualaikong, nok beli roti ning. Hoo gitu kabo ah ke ye. Baru tubik oveng kang, memang panah ah roti tu. Pahtu kadang-kadang mok I rajing gok ah gerok I dengan adik adik dengang sepupu I sekali ah, suruh gi beli roti tu. Ala, jalang sikek je pahtu sapa cokoh depan dapo mok cik roti paung. Paka baju sluo sekak, kadang-kadang dok dang basuh muka terejung tangga laluh nok gi beli roti paung. Heroing kang. Tapi biase ah adak kehidupang di dunia, kadang-kadang sold out yillek abih doh. Rezak gok braseang taing (time) tu. Sape pullok bahang banyok ngat roti paung ning? Dok tahu ke heroing nok makang? Dok slere lalu ah gining takdok roti paung. Kene berebuk nasik goreng hok mok dengang Mok Teh goreng ah. Ya Allah, sedak laa. Roti paung cicoh teh o dengan nasik goreng hok mok dengang Mok Teh goreng hok kate sakning lah sedak tu.

Pahtu bile beso, duk makang Kepsi, Mekdone, makanang Korea, dok ingat doh ke roti paung tu. Gitu ah lupe daratang betto. Doh ekpong kecek kecek bukang buleh makang Kepsi, Mekdone sokmo. Kepsi kak pital Batu Buurk tu ah legeng (legend) kali. Owoh sedak do'oh rase makang Kepsi kecek kecek dulu. Lening biase je takdok perasaang pung makang Kepsi. Tetiba masuk cite Kepsi padahal atah takdi takdok pung. Hahaha. Bui boneh kek ah ke orang Ganung *akak kening stail (style) debbe. Orang Ganung debbe kang. Negeri paling ramai rempik. Tetiba masuk rempik pulok. Dok abih doh entry ni gining. Sambung mula ah. Pahtu aritu ada wak kenduri. Eh nape doh kenduri bahase Ganung? Ah sudoh dok ingak *pelluh rejak sebak takut kene wat nyenyeh ke orang Ganung. Bukang makang gula tapi kenduri hok kecik macangge kenduri arwoh tu. Ambik kenduri arwoh teruh dia bui padahal majlih tunang. Hahaha. Ah layang base eh nok mikir nape kenduri dalang Bahasa Ganung. Kalau tahu, please komeng down below. Aritu Mok Teh bowok roti paung tu mari mase kenduri tu. I pung bende agi, ngak lalu ah dok tengok kiri kanang doh. Soh ke nok ajok orang laing makang tek. Nasik mok I sibuk taing (time) tu, kalu dok mesti kene cubik. Tiba-tiba rasa dosse pulok sebak dok ajok orang laing makang tek. Tapi roti paung sedak do'oh *mata berair sukke-ang. Mase tu Mok Teh dok kate nape pung pasal roti paung tu. Die duk sibuk wak kije. Bila orang laing balik blake doh, baru mok I kabo, Mok Teh bowok roti paung tu sebak ingat ke anok sedare hok brehi sangak ke roti paung tu mule. Rase nok nangih dengo. Mok Teh, bakpe Mok Teh ingat lagi roti paung hok Kak Yu brehi ning? *nangih pahtu sumbak roti paung dalang muluk.

Gitu ah cite I dengang roti paung. Balik kekgi nok ajok mok balik kappung beli roti paung ah Dok sabor eh *gelepor dok sabo. Bye.

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I could be wild in my other blog. This is one of many entries where I wrote without thinking at all and I found this kind of entries that I love to reread again and again in the future because I'm my blog avid reader if you haven't know yet. Hope you enjoy this and please share with me your childhood memories too!

I've watch this channel and some other channel similar to this for some time thanks to my husband. He showed me a video from this channel where Daddy (main character in this video) cooked yummy fried chicken. Just the regular fried chicken. Turmeric powder and salt but we drool. Not a surprise ey judging from our size? Hahaha.

I don't know how these people get the fund or why they do what they do but it warm my heart whenever I watch them work. With so much things being reported on the news, I just don't want to live on this planet anymore.

  

Be the people who make this planet a better world than it is today please. Don't litter. Don't bully. Don't be cruel. Don't be selfish. Give more. Smile more. Don't let the humanity vanish from our trait before humankind does.

Assalamualaikum.

I found this while I was on the net (I'm quite regular at this place called Google. No surprise there). Without further ado, let's take this test. You might need pen and paper to jot down your answers or your phone notepad app will do. Take your time to think about the answer. No need to rush. But remember this is only for fun. Don't take it seriously okay guys. Happy answering 😊

1. You're peering into the sea. What do you feel?

2. You're walking in the forest and looking down at the ground. What do you see? Now write down the feeling you had.

3. You watch seagulls flying above your head. How does this make you feel?

4. You're looking at running horses. What emotions did you get?

5. You're in the desert and there's a wall in front of you. You can't see the end of it. There's a little hole in the wall. You see an oasis through it. What are you going to do?

6. While wandering around the desert, you suddenly find a jug of full of water. What are your actions?

7. You are lost in the forest in the night. Suddenly you find a house with lights on. Think of what you're going to do.

8. You're in the fog and you can't see anything. What's the first thing you want to do?

WHAT DO YOUR ANSWERS MEAN

1. This is your attitude to life, your emotions and wants

My answer : Calm. I imagined a sea without waves. 

Attitude to life : I mean, I don't have much happening in my life. In other words, my life is boring hence no waves. Hahaha. But in a serious note, I don't overthink. I do what I feel like doing but of course after I think (lightly) about consequences. I'm not easily bother by petty things. For example if I found out people badmouthing me, I'll feel sad for a while but that's about it. Next step, either I watch my attitude when I'm front of them or I just simply avoid them. But of course I will try to improve myself if the things they said are true and it's harmful to other people too. If people said I have bad breath and it smells like stinky tofu. Then I'll make sure to brush my teeth regularly and always chewing gum. That was just example. I don't have bad breath alright.

Emotions : I have emotions like roller coaster. So the sea might home a family of happy clown fish in some part and typhoon going on in another part. Hahaha.

Wants : I don't have many wants and even if I do, I work slowly towards it. No rush. Or I might just sit down and think I'm never going to make it. That's how you get a boring life. Hahaha

2. This is the way you feel about your family.

My answer : I saw red mushrooms and I'm curious about it. This explain why I'm such busy body and always peeking into my sibling's life. I'm curious about everything they do. I once told Arrif I'm going to call Ira (my little sister) everyday just because I'm curious about her daily diet. She went from chubby to slightly thin girl and I know she gain weight easily so she must be really strict about her diet.

3. Your attitude to women.

My answer : I was scared because the seagulls could poop on top of me. Women are scary guys, trust me. I know because I'm a woman too. Hahaha.

4. Your attitude to men.

My answer : I felt happy because I imagined familiar horses. They might represent the men who are close to me like Arrif, ayah, Angah and my uncle.

5. This is your strategy for solving problems.

My answer : I tried to find a door. Of course. I gotta use the right channel to solve problems. Don't post things on Facebook and ask people to make it viral guys. That's unethical. Unless you already went to the right channel but to no avail.

6. This his how you choose your life partner.

My answer : I kept the water and use it when needed. I don't know what does this mean. Does it mean I use Arrif only when needed? Hahaha

7. Your readiness for marriage and starting a family.

My answer : I peeked into the house to see if it is safe to enter. I remember when Arrif told me that his  parent planned to merisik, (yes, he never asked me if I want to marry him or not. So confident la this guy 😴) I was so emotional. I cried not because I was happy that I finally can marry the love of my life, but because I freaked out. Hahaha. There's so many question. How do I know I want to spent the rest of my life with this guy? What if he decided I should let go of my job and be a full time housewife later? (disclaimer : I'm in no way belittle housewives but I know myself. I just can't stay at home 24/7 or I'd go nuts). While all the formalities and adat went smoothly as planned, I had battlefield in me and finally I just decided to go with the flow #sodrama. I think most people could relate to this tho. It's a real marriage mkay not play pretend.

8. Your attitude to death

My answer : Keep walking slowly. Death is certain so just keep walking toward it slowly. Don't do things that could shorten your lifespan. Hahaha.

Try this and don't forget to share your answer with me okay. I'm curious!

I figured I should introduce myself properly, yes? So hello again! I am Nurul. A 20 something girl who loves writing but not loving it enough to be a writer. I am a designer by profession but in ideal world, I am an astronaut. That being said, it is predictable that I am obsessed with outer space especially Mars because whenever my PMS hits me, I always wish I could live in Mars. My other obsessions would be Cho Kyuhyun, books, coffee, TV Series and movies and my mother. Ooh and I'm married to a funny human being named Arrif.

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